Fat and ugly?

Let me be the first to say I know I'm not some gorgeous model. I don't have some inflated view of myself. In fact like most women, I am on the other side of the spectrum, I have low self-esteem. But what really drives me crazy is, as people we like to put each other down. And when we can't seem to really come up with something negative about someone, we decide to attack their looks, especially women. WHY? Why decide to attack the things that people can't really change about themselves or to attack the things that people are the most insecure about. In what way does that help our own lives by being a complete asshole and attacking other people's looks?

The other day I regrettably was involved in a "cyber fight." In no way did I attack what she looked like in fact I kept all physical attributes out of the conversation. The first thing she said to me was that I am fat and ugly. Really? Not even obese and hideous, or at least something that took some type of thought. At first I played it off, pretended like it didn't mean anything to me. But thinking about it later, she hit me where it hurts. I have always been insecure about my looks. It made me want to lock myself away in a room. Because sure, I could try to lose the weight, but what about the ugly part? You can't fix ugly, unless you're plagued by wealth and even then, plastic surgery can't fix everything. So I'm sitting here depressed because some little girl hurt my feelings. She cut me deep. But it got me thinking, what did she really get out of that? Calling me names, did that make her feel better about herself? Making someone else feel like crap, how can that make you feel good? It can't. Hurting someone else doesn't change the way you think about yourself, in fact it might make you feel even worse. We as women, and as people as a whole, have to really stop this douche bag business because it's getting old. And cliche as it sounds, it starts with ourselves. In order to love and treat others with respect, we have to love and respect ourselves.

And please ladies stop with this fat and ugly business, it's really just getting annoying. Who's to say who's fat and who's ugly? Are you Ms. Perfect? Jesus, is that you? No? Okay then stop with the judgement, because you can't judge beauty by the outside and you can't judge with such ugly insides. I'm tired of these horribly mean people judging beauty. You can't even find the beauty in yourself so stop trying to find it in others.

And yes I see the irony of me calling people's insides ugly but gosh, how can people be so cruel and so superficial? Looks are not everything. Concentrate on your soul and beauty will radiate outwards.

I'm tired of everyone tearing everyone else down. I'm not trying to have a kumbaya moment but there is literally beauty in every single thing on this earth. If you can't see that then you are truly missing out on life. So when someone tries to insult me and I say get a life, that's what I mean, get a REAL life. Stop worrying about everyone else and judging everyone else and start enjoying life. Because every minute you spend judging another person, is another moment wasted.

Even the hunchback has something beautiful about them, but it takes a truly beautiful person to see that.

Casita